Wednesday, June 24, 2009

133th post...

just finish the 8 episode of bai quan nu wang... hmmmz.. those who watch it should know ba... i said i could somehow relate to it... and this particular episode... i decided to blog a emo post... when i still feeling it... to rem what i feel at this moment...

我真的可以放下了吗?

it has been quite a long time since......... u know..... hmmz...
have to admit that i have been quite an ass from den til now... kinda flirt.. kinda not serious in girls and stuff... tot tt... you know... it does help... like getting surrounded by many girls.. surely beats having just one.. surely beats the restricted life i had.. surely beats having just you.... but i do realise now... i just need 1... 1 that i really want... hmmmz... i still rem saying " I can't find (love) after you".. which what i seen over the past year justify this... i think.... i can never dating purely by feeling le ba... maybe its my age ba... but of cos... i hope to be proven wrong...

Got reminded partly also cos jx say de... he say he will most prob marry his gf.. cos after this gf.. our age... the girls... and our mentality.. no more rs with just feeling la... yeah...
so he wanna keep this feeling and stuff...

haha... quite hilarious.. i now want to be serious le ba... no more random girls... no more... i miss those laughters... those laughters when i would asking myself while laughing "is this what they call happiness"? when i experience that once.. i tot... maybe there is more to it... not really tt happy ba... but now when i lost tt... like at times while laughing.. i really wish tt there was a special someone sharing tt laughter wif me... i know... the laughter den was happiness... didn't realise it when i was having it.. And now i know... After avoiding all photos of her for so long... as i saw once and had quite a few sleepless nights... avoiding all forms of info and stuff.. totally cutting this person out of my life for so long.. seeing her again a few weeks ago does totally have an answer to the chinese sentence above... yes i did... i can really wish her well as a fren and stuff...

So yups... i watch too much show le la... getting hurt den becoming flirt kinda thingy is juz for dramas... not for real life... and i will snap out of it... right at this moment... 25 years old.. golden age of life... no time to waste... i shall be happy... hee... I WILL!

PS: i will call the all-in...

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